The 45th,

I see no point in pushing you any further for any predictable answer. I might as well hold back and await to see what would actually take place. In reality, I yet to accept any thing yet. But I hope I'd be able to advance forward instead of being stuck. You said you only want her, and i only want you. There's no difference, if ever there's one day you would like to experience how i feel for you, there's no need. Because how you feel for her is how i feel for you. I'm complacent just to see you smile. And if one day i fall into arms of another , it's not because I've stopped loving you or because I've forgotten you, It's because i love you too much I think it's best to let you go. I'd have sinned greatly if i denied my love for you. Therefore, I want you to know how much you meant to me.

Hopelessly devoted to you,

I've this sudden urge to blog right here, although i guess no one in particular would read this. Everything is going fine for me now except love. It's blocking me in any ways I do, it affects my mood which leads to endless arguments with my parents and affects me in my studies. I wish to bring myself out of such a endless pit hole where I know I can never climb out. Still, I'm trying aimlessly to command my heart to move on. I'll try , i really will. Because the answer I'd get from you is very predictable. It seems like I'll never be able to enter your heart, I'm not your key, but I can always and at anytime be your spare key.