The 45th,

I see no point in pushing you any further for any predictable answer. I might as well hold back and await to see what would actually take place. In reality, I yet to accept any thing yet. But I hope I'd be able to advance forward instead of being stuck. You said you only want her, and i only want you. There's no difference, if ever there's one day you would like to experience how i feel for you, there's no need. Because how you feel for her is how i feel for you. I'm complacent just to see you smile. And if one day i fall into arms of another , it's not because I've stopped loving you or because I've forgotten you, It's because i love you too much I think it's best to let you go. I'd have sinned greatly if i denied my love for you. Therefore, I want you to know how much you meant to me.

Hopelessly devoted to you,

I've this sudden urge to blog right here, although i guess no one in particular would read this. Everything is going fine for me now except love. It's blocking me in any ways I do, it affects my mood which leads to endless arguments with my parents and affects me in my studies. I wish to bring myself out of such a endless pit hole where I know I can never climb out. Still, I'm trying aimlessly to command my heart to move on. I'll try , i really will. Because the answer I'd get from you is very predictable. It seems like I'll never be able to enter your heart, I'm not your key, but I can always and at anytime be your spare key.

Worst Month , Best day

Am i suppose to say , how much i love you when i know you'll just turn your back on me ? How am to confess my one sided love to you ? I have always been waiting for you to turn around to give me one look , a second of affection was all i needed . But you didn't cared for me at all . You just kept running , running and running. I tried so hard to catch up with you but to no avail because you're trying to catch up with else one. I wished you'd make the decision correctly. Hopefully you did. Wish you all the best with her, though it seriously hurt me so much deep inside..

Let fate decide it,

Shall leave it all to fate, and yes i'm keeping this link . Because so many memories fall here. Learn to love oneself before loving elseone. ;)